Amazing stories happen to other people.
Beta down, 148
About Me
- G$
- What does not kill you, makes you stronger... Right? On November 7th, 2007, I turned to my husband from my hospital bed and said it. We both looked at each other, hoping that there would be something besides pain and grief coming out of our experience. Our son, William was stillborn November 7th, 2007 at 26 weeks. Since then, we continue to struggle with infertility and other crap life throws us, because you know, there are no free passes.
BabyQuest
- EDD - July 20th, 2010
- Dec 17 - 9 weeks, 2 days 165 bpm, graduated from the RE. Wow.
- Dec 4 - 1 Heartbeat, 127bpm. Hang on little guy.
- Nov/Dec 2009 - HCG check to make sure it's going down. Nope, 5900, two sacs found, nothing in one, fetal pole in other, no HB in either - 10 days after I was told to stop all meds.
- Nov 2009 - IVF#3 transferred 1 good, two fair embryos. Beta#1 = 171, beta 2 = 149, beta 3 = 237, beta 4 (24 hrs) 221. Stop all meds.
- Nov 2009 - Foster/Adopt Home Study complete. License expected beg-mid Dec
- Aug 2009 - FET transferred 3 "good" embryos, beta 1 = 18, beta 2 = 8, chemical pregnancy
- July 2009 - Foster Training
- May 2009 - IVF #2, 28 eggs retrieved, 20 Fertilized, 2 transferred (AB, BB grade), 5 Frozen (good, fair)... Beta #1 40, Beta#2 39 - Chemical Pregnancy
- April 2009 - Foster Parent Orientation
- Mar 26, 2009 - IVF #1 confirmed failure
- Mar 2009 - Egg retrieval 3/11, 18 retrieved, 15 ICSI'd, 14 fertilized. Transfer 3/16 - two beautiful blasts. 10 left to watch. None made it to freeze, 3 bad quality, the rest stopped growing :(
- Feb 2009 - Start inj for IVF - Stims start - 2/27, slow response, meds increased at Day 5, ER - 3/11
- Jan 2009 - Right Hydro Tube removed via Laproscopic Surgery. Onto IVF in Feb-ish
- Dec 2008 - HSG shows completely blocked left tube, hydrosalphynx tube on the right side. Next up: tubal removal and then IVF. I think.
- Oct 2008 - IUI w/ femara+acupuncture for lining= BFP and good betas! but oops, possible tubal. Methotrexate shot.
- June-Sept 2008 - struggle with lining, IUI/travel timing, clom00d to femara...
- May 2008 (late) - TTC, Cl.omid, u/s monitoring, IUI - full blood panel... abyss of failure. Not tracking anymore.
- April 2008 - Followup = septum gone! Left tube blocked with scarring :(
- March 5, 2008 - Uterine Septum removed!
- Jan 18th, 2008 - 3rd and final D&C, finally no more POC
- Jan 4, 2008 - 2nd D&C, mass found and left (biopsy normal, POC)
- December 20th, 2007 - MRI to confirm Uterine Septum diagnosis. Products of conception (POC) remaining
- November 7 - 1st D&C for placenta removal
- November 7, 2007 - William born still, 1lb 15 oz, 13.75 inches long.
- November 6, 2007 - Regular OB appt, heartbeat found. Ultrasound later in day "No Heartbeat" Baby stuck behind Septum, probably IUGR.
- June-October 2007 - Perfect ultrasounds, great pregnancy. It's a boy.
- June 2007 - Scary ultrasounds, worried about ectopic. Then, Uterine Septum found. Baby perfect.
- May 2007 - Met new RE, brought all records. Told to try IUI first. In fact, lets start this cycle. Got pregnant!
- 2005/06 - Went to RE, diagnosed with PCOS and possible tubal filling defect, uterus rotated to the right (HSG). Clomid and natural attempts for over a year. Told IVF was probably our only option
- May 2004 - Got serious about trying to have a baby
- May 2000 - Married, never really used BCP
Informative Links
Blogs I read (list not updated enough, Go.ogleRead.er ftw)
- A Charmed Life
- A Mending Heart
- Afterwords
- Antigone Lost
- Awful but Functioning
- Bridges - an Awareness blog
- Busted Babymaker
- Confessions of a grieving mother
- Dead Baby Jokes
- Ferdinand's Gifts
- Ferdinand's Gifts
- Flotsam
- Give me back my heart
- Glow in the Woods
- Her very own
- It's a strange world
- Letters to babies that lived
- Life without Caden
- Little bit lost
- Looking for an open window
- Missing Micah
- Mommy wants vodka
- Mrs. Spit Spouts off
- My Resurfacing
- No matter how small
- On the wrong side of statistics
- Once in a lifetime
- Our Little Penguin
- Our own creation
- Paw Prints on My Heart
- PostSecret
- Relaxing doesn't make babies
- She almost made it
- So Dear and yet so far
- Sweet | Salty
- This is not what I had planned
- Time is a Tease
- Unlucky 20 %
- Uterus Divided
- Where to go from here?
- Won't Fear Love
- Wrong Side of the Stats
- Yummy sushi pajamas
Disclaimer
40 comments:
F*ck!! so very sorry :(
Godf*ckingshitf*ck. G, f*ck, I know you don't want to hear it, but I am so, so, SO sorry. XO.
Oh, no!!!!!!!!!!!!! Please, please say it ain't so!!
That's not right! God, IF sucks!
BTW, amazing stories don't happen to everyone. My beta was 8 yesterday. Very un-fucking amazing. I'm not saying that to make you feel better. Nothing will. All the same, you are not alone.
Goddammit. F*ck. Dammit.
Son of a bitch. Son of a fucking bitch.
Off to beat the shit out of something or someone. God damn it G.,I am so pissed.
no, No, NO!!! (I know you hate the sorry...but really, I'm so sorry.) This SUCKS. *hug*
I'm so sorry.
MOTHERFUCKER.
I. am. LIVID PISSED.
FUCK...that's all i have to say
Man.... G$ man.... xoxoxoxoox
Dammit to hell.
I am so sorry....
What a disappointment. This sucks beyond words. Unfair doesn't begin to describe.
Fuck. FUCK!
Oh fuck, just just fuck.....
That is so very unfair - I am so sorry. :( Thinking of you.
I'm so sorry. :(
So so very sorry. I have been where you are now, and it is not fair, and it sucks. Your homestudy is done, your baby will come to you, in one form or another. Hang in there, email me if you need a shoulder. Hugs, ag
FUCK. Goddamn motherfucker. You have got to be kidding me. I am furious at the universe for you. I just don't understand. I just don't understand.
Shit.
FUCK! I came over to wish a silent congrats and now, FUCK!
Fuck. FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Sorry G$ (*HUGS*)
Out of curiosity, because I cling to any possibility like an idiot sometimes, and this is probably out there, but how many embryos did they transfer? Is it a possible vanishing twin early on?
I'm so sorry.
Oh, G. I'm so sorry. It's just not fair.
IF is so damned cruel. There are just no words.
I am so sorry. I know words are not enough.
Praying for you.
Kelley
Sorry just does not cut it this time.
I'm sorry. This really sucks.
I'm so sorry.
I'm so sorry. LFCA
so sorry to hear this. we are in the same boat. sending you healing thoughts.
CRAP!
It's stupid to say I'm so sorry, but I am.
I'm so so sorry.
LFCA
So, so sorry...
I'm so very sorry. ~hugs~
Crap G$. I wish I could punch something for you. I am sorry. I really am, even though I know it's the last thing you want to hear.
I too am sorry for your loss. It's the hope that keeps us going, and the hope that hurts the most.
Unfair. Again.
Thinking of you.
I'm so sorry G. So very sorry.
xxx
DAMN! Damn, damn, damn, damn DAMN!!
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